Day 11 & 12 – dreams and dedication are a powerful combination

I had my first deep tissue massage today. The relief I feel is great. Although it killed and I think we’ll have to work out what kind of pressures my back can deal with.

Everyday I start to feel better and better. I’m losing weight and strengthening my muscles so the pain lessens.

I’ve started taking COD liver oil tablets, I accidentally but down on one it was so horrible. I’m trying very hard to raise my mood and day by day make life a little easier as a person suffering with chronic pain.

Day 10 – Christmas is coming

I’m so excited I love Christmas. No good for the waist line though. I swam 50 lengths today and I am creeeam crackered. It feels really good to be tired from exercise rather than work.

I’m going to start taking a vitamin d and collagen supplement to see if it helps the pain. At this point I’ll try anything.

I’ve been reading a lot about the effects of alcohol on your body. I did not realise how calorific wine and cider is. It’s ridiculous, I’m going to try and stick to a G&T from now on. My bar is pretty well stocked atm so will see what healthyish cocktails I can whip up. Attach picture of my bar below.

Days 8 & 9 – every cloud has a silver lining

I’m struggling to see the silver lining through the intense pain all over my back but I know it’s there. I did a Pilates Back workout and boy did it hurt. I think I may have over done it.

In other news I only lost 2 lb this week most definitely due to the amount I ate at the weekend. I was a bit of a pig 🐖 but it’s still something. Yesterday and today was pretty uneventful. I’ve got a cold and it makes me more tired and my back worse. Anyone who suffers with fibromyalgia can probably relate, the littelist thing can aggravate it.

Seen a great recipe for Swedish meatballs, will have to try out this week.

Days 6 & 7 – happiness can be found even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the 💡

Aladdin was amazing. You must all go and see it. Jasmine we a bit off but the rest of the cast, the set and the costumes were so good. I made up for missing Pilates by do double days.

I have masssssttttteeeeerrrreeeedddd the hula hoop thank god. 20 minutes a day has been a killer.

I have become obsessed with RuPauls drag race I cannot stop watching it. Its my new fave programme.

Today I had a roast and I’m a bit worried about my weigh in tomorrow, hopefully I will have lost.

Even after a week I feel better and stronger and mentally I feel a lot better. A lot more relaxed.

Days 4 & 5 – a little slip in the road

Yesterday I’m ashamed to say was my first slip in the road. I didn’t do my Pilates and I didn’t write this blog. I’m also ashamed to say it’s because I was attempting to learn how to make sushi.

This morning I woke up, brushed myself off and completed two days worth of Pilates in one day (I’m going to feel this tomorrow) and finished making my Christmas pudding.

I’m on the bus on the way to see Aladdin, I’m so excited. I’ll let you know how it is 😊

Day 3 – just keep swimming

Today I woke up very sore after my 2nd day of blogilates and my attempt to master the weighted hula hoop. (Still terrible) even after 3 days I do feel stronger, let’s hope it keeps up. My backs still hurting as always but I’m hoping by building the muscle in my back the pain will lessen. I had chicken Chinese chicken, Chinese Broccoli with Garlic and egg fried rice made with 1 cal spray for dinner, picture inserted. It was really nice.


Day 2 – Perseverance is failing 19 times and succeeding the 20th

Today I attempted to learn how to use my weighted hula hoop, so say I failed would be an understatement. I was terrible I couldn’t keep it off the ground for more than 10 seconds but I will persevere and keep trying.

I’m feeling a bit sore this morning due to the first day of blogilates and going swimming last night but even after 1 day I feel stronger and healthier.

The Randang curry was amazing a must try. Was meant to take a photo but we’d gobbled it up before I remembered. Find the recipe here:

Tomorrow I need to make this Christmas pudding, nigellas best. Will upload a photo of the progress.

Jessica Smith

Day 1 – Setting goals is the first step in turning the invisible in the visible

Welcome to my first daily blog and the first day of my month to try and change my life. In the wise words of Sheryl Crow ‘The first cut is the deepest’ and today was hard. As usual I woke up feeling just as tired and demotivated as when I went to sleep. I dragged my body out of bed at 9AM and I looked in the mirror and said ‘pull yourself together Jess’ because I know in my heart of hearts if I’m going to beat this I need an attitude change. Fibromyalgia has affected me in a lot of ways both Physically and Mentally. I am like a lot of other sufferers in a lot of pain across my back and my neck. I have over the last couple of years since my diagnosis become lazy, fat and demotivated and it frustrates me enormously. I am 22 years old and I know I shouldn’t feel like this. I’m taking this experience 1 step at a time and hope in a months time my outlook will have changed.

Today is the first day of my sick leave. I’ve used it to set myself some goals and to try and work out how I’m going to use the next month most effectively.

Goals and how I’m going to achieve them:

  1.  Lose some weight (see attached Jess’s fat chart). a184af5b-a246-4945-8cd2-df6dedd69822 To do this I will change my diet to cut out condiments (I love sauces) and as much saturated fat (Oil/ Fats and Sweets) as possible. I don’t think cutting these out completely is healthy or sustainable so I emphasise the ‘cutting down’. I will be weighing myself weekly and will keep this page updated in my progress.
  2. Get fitter and healthier. To do this I have started Blogilates 1 month plan and will let you know how I’m getting on.
  3. Stretch and strengthen my back daily and alleviate the pain. I have seen quite a few YouTube videos taking you through step by step on a number of stretches. Again I’ll let you know what I think.
  4.  To feel happier in myself. To do this I need to push through the mental barrier that the condition has made me put up and challenge myself to think differently. Like I can do anything I put my mind to.

So that’s me signing off for today. I’m making Rick Steins Randang curry for dinner in my slow cooker, I’m very excited. Will share a picture tomorrow.

Jessica Smith

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